the good times aint here, gone.

everything's so fcuked up.
i totally hate being sick.
there's nothing i could do.
almost anything spoils my mood.
maybe, i'm not going to camp.
ohwell, who cares anw?
family kept persuadg me not to go.
(ohyah, thanks Uda for the entry. hahahaaa.)
reluctant at first, but feelg this kind of shit, lately.
maybe, yes.. i shouldnt go.
& can this bloodystupid itchyness stop bothering me!?
pleaseeeeee.
urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhh.
maybe, reading helps.
i'm gona read a book! yes!
& i dont care if u'll say i'm a bookworm.
& part of it, i dont care what anyone thinks now.
just a waste of time.
ohh mannnn, cheer me up, someoneeee!?
i forgot, who cares? hahahahaa.
& lastly, i love my family.
YAY!

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I Don't know where to start,
because I don't know when there will be an end.
Almost all of my life we've had each other.
We've laughed together,
Cried together,
Yelled at each other,
And lied to each other.
But there is another thing, too.
I'm not so blind to see,
How much you are like me.
In my heart I know that everything I do,
Will somehow have an effect on you.
I try so hard to always set a good example,
But I know in the past I have given you bad samples.
Life isn't easy,
And when it's not,
I wanna be there to guide your way with you.
When I'm torn between choices,
I always wonder how each one might effect you today.
I know there've been times when maybe I did the wrong thing,
But now I can really see just how careful I need to be.
You'll make mistakes,
Take the wrong road instead of the right,
But don't ever let people tear you down,
Always put up a fight.
Most of all I want you to know,
That no matter where I am,
What I'm doing,
Or who I'm with,
If you are in trouble in life,
I'll drop everything, and be there in seconds to give you my advice.
I want to say I will end this message with something special,
But it would be a lie,
Because there will never be an end,
What we have together will never die.

gosh, this poem(?) from Uda (1st sis) really meant alot.
& since the camp is on 21st May & also, her bday..
i wont go to camp. (there's also medical reason.)
like u said, there is no better friend than a sister.
i love my sisters tooo!