hey everyone. -.-

no, i'm not asleep yet. i'm using second sis' laptop on her bed right now.. oh, where is she? probably snoring her way through the night in an air-conditioned hotel room around kl/johor right now. yeapp, she's on a holiday with her bestfriend & her family.. for five freaking days! waaah, holiday betol nihhh eh. yelah, nak lupekan peristiwe yang dier fail driving test tuu. hahaha kidding! i think my room will be abandoned for awhile as i'll be sleeping here, with my crazy third sis for nowwww. ohyah, duedue tengah mengadap laptop.. sorry ah kalau matlumat tak penting. just wana kill the time you know! shut up and reaaaad reaaaaad. *rihanna's shut up and drive tune* nyeahahaha~

ahhh like finally, managed to get in touch with the cikopek aka fiza. she's busy looking at the christmas' lights at orchard while i'm back home trying to figure out why she's not online for the past few days. something's wrong with her internet connection, actually.. and she told me her computer will crash in no time. tu lah, download songs summore! *jangan cakap orang, lin.. nanti kau yang kene.* i thought she too was on a holiday or something.. but come to think of it, of'cos she's not lah. plus, her grandfather is stil sick and her mom is working what. asked her to come down to my house on monday to finish up the assignments.. and can update her dusty blog osoooo! see how lah.

i've been reading my archives, word to word just now. most of the times, i giggled to myself.. i even forgot some events that took place in the past. on how my friendship with others failed, and i kept fighting for the best.. but eventually, it died and all i do was to move on.. telling myself everything happens for a reason. well, to be honest.. i'm not really sure if that saying is true. simple, it's just because i've yet to know what are all the reasons behind every incident that happened. curiousity or even impatience in other words.. i want to know the aftermath real bad. like why did this happened? why did that took place? i need answers.

maybe, i'm just in those moods again.. questioning non-stop about life. eventhough we know, everything is set for us.. our future is all written just as we are born in to this world. all we have to do, is to live it. live life to the fullest, as they say.. i don't know why am i suddenly talking about this. probably i need a change.. some new people in my life, start taking important things seriously. thinking about the future can even freak me out. olevels next year? preparing to step to the next stage of life? be working and earning money? growing old and will i age gracefully? i don't wana grow uppp but the next thing i know, i'll be dead.

hah! in the middle of the night, a fifteenyearoldgrl talking about life here. hmm.. i'm still not sleepy.