i feel grumpy these days. because i think i feel that the things i do is never appreciated or that i tried my very best to be nice to everyone but i gained nothing. it's not that i want something in return but at least just something i deserve or just a few kind words anyone could say. i feel sick. in the mind. sometimes in the throat. as if i was choking on my words i really wanted to say out loud and clear. but i don't want to offend anyone, or create problems and cause misunderstandings. sometimes i hate to be honest. pretenders do succeed anyway.. maybe i should give it a try. maybe you're thinking that lin is just having one of those days but seriously, you totally have no idea. nobody. no one. i feel sick literally. ahhh fcuk not the tears. and now i feel like a loser with no one to talk to and all i do is to rant here. :(