doesn't mean my cousins got into trouble and got "caught", i would end up the same like them if i.. hah go out? obviously they did something lawfully wrong till they got caught. why make that as an excuse to not let me out? look whose their friends, and mine. i bet it's totally different, in a good way ofcs. why can't mom be thankful that i'm with the right crowd? why can't she be assured that i won't be so stupid to get myself in trouble? isn't she already happy i have completed my olevels and got into poly? why must she always look at my negative side when i thought my family should be the one who believe in that - i won't do anything to shame my family, i won't do anything to get in trouble, most importantly.. i got my brains to think - what's wrong and what's right. everyone have friends.. no matter we're kids teens or adults. when you meet your friends, you want to share with them whatever that happened, sit and talk, laugh your asses off and go back with a smile and so much memories, ryte? you don't go and meet them, look at their faces and go back home what. i mean, c'mon. i need those happy times with my friends too.. i'm still small? i bet my parents stopped counting my age when i entered primary one. i need a break sometimes. listen, i need a break.. not a breakdown. i know she care about my well-being but stop comparing godamnit. and stop making me feel as if all the good things i did, the good behaviour i've showed is all a waste and invisible. just look at me and be thankful i'm on the right track, just like how i'm thankful to have everyone around me today. :'( okay now i seriously need a break. will be away from all these stupid craps. i will miss my cats.. which have come to me with pitiful eyes and stroked their head towards my face when i'm all upset. or maybe they just wanted food.. whatever.