to your eyes, i am such a bad friend.
i don't know what to do anymore.
like i've said, EVERYTHING is going wrong these days.
i'm sad, even though i didn't show it.
it's not just talking, i am really feeling this stupid pain.

i've decided. i'll just let it be.. i'll just go with the flow. i don't mind having to press that 'mute' button everytime. nevermind, it's okay.. honestly, i just want to dump those unnecessary things which are occupying the limited space in my brain. it's not that i don't care, i'm just too exhausted to give a damn. i wish i could scream at anything that made me mad, especially at those misunderstandings that came without any warnings. settling problems has never been easy.. it's not like letting out a big sigh and with a blink of eye, everything would be alright. how i wish i have all the time in the world to mind every single thing carefully and avoid making (stoopid) mistakes that would eventually hurt someone else or even myself. but now that i don't, i have no choice but to just let it be.. i just feel like it's the right time now, to be selfish and try to be alittle ignorant.

i can't afford to always think of other people's feelings..
but end up, they assumed only the bad side of us.
no no nevermind, told you.. i'll just shut my mouth for this case.

{edit} i won't care anymore. okay? goodbye. & thanks to those who have been there for me..
even when they know the real me. and they don't judge me by who i mixed with.
i'm not the kinda person who call someone 'my goodfriend' for nothing.. when i say that, i mean it.
but now, everything is wasted.. down the drain.
just don't think you're all nothing but always the good ones.
hahhh who's the proud one now?